Musings of a Sad Bi Guy

It's the beginning of a new year so what better time to crank up a new journal I definitely won't abandon for months at a time, but whatever - I can at least try to be consistent with something even there's huge gaps in between. I've been thinking up an idea for a comic/zine type thing for a while now and I wanted to journal and write out some of my ideas and consolidate them in one location. Tumblr just seemed a little much for me (even though I appreciate the fandom and art/RP scene on there) and I got nostalgic for the LJ-esque formatting. Dreamwidth just seemed a bit more lowkey and drama free compared to other places like Instagram or Twitter. I also considered moving some of my art to DeviantArt, but we'll see how it all goes. I'm kinda excited to finally get into focus on creative projects and flesh them out. 

 

So what did I accomplish in Hell Year 2020? Well aside from a getting a new tablet and managing to crank out one or two fan-art works, I also finished a handful of books, manga, and AT LONG LAST was able to complete the Kingdom Hearts series, including the DS titles. I even dabbled with some of the mobile games just because I figured there was the faintest chance that they would be relevant for Kingdom Hearts III - and I was correct. 

 

KH definitely became my hyper-fixation/special interest for a several months with only a few short “breaks” in April to play FF7 Remake and then during the summer when I finally got a Switch Lite and started playing Animal Crossing. I had forgotten how much I missed the characters (always an Axel, Roxas, and Riku stan no matter how old I am), the music, the gameplay, and just little nostalgic bits and pieces from that era of JRPG's. Before deleting my Tumblr blog, I wrote a long rambling post about my thoughts on KH III and what I liked/disliked about it and maybe at a later point I'll write something similar, but maybe after a second gameplay. Unfortunately, I wanted to switch gears from the series because I have SO many more games I really want to play, which is what I have been doing this past month. 

 

Currently, I'm working my way through BOTH Persona 5 Royal (my first ever Persona game) and Danganronpa v3. Dangonronpa was my obsession throughout all of 2019 and I played the hell out of the first and second games with replays AND watched the DR3 anime series twice, but I was putting v3 on the backburner because I knew it wasn't a direct continuation of the other two games (well as far as I know NOW) and wasn't necessary to understand the general "universe." However, around the time I had purchased the game I had gotten a PS4 Pro and was gifted the KH series by my partner for Christmas so you can imagine what happened with that! Anyway, ONE WHOLE YEAR later, I finally am cranking out V3 and so far I have MANY emotions about it, but I'll probably go into that in separate post - I kinda am debating if I should hold off on everything until after my first playthrough. 

 

Persona 5 Royal managed to suck me in as well so I've been alternating between the two games depending on my mood. So far I really dig the stylistic aesthetics, the music, and the writing is solid too. The turn-based combat style also has potential but obviously since I've only completed the first Palace which was 80% a tutorial and very lowkey, there’s probably more additions and abilities I’ll get to play around with. Side note: the only thing I don't enjoy about the game is that I picked a really obnoxious name for my player character and I kinda wish I could change it, buuuut I guess I'll have to deal with that. 

 

Once I finish those games my plan (as of now) is to go through the majority of the Final Fantasy games (at least the ones I have on my PS4 and PC currently) and finally finish The World Ends with You before the next game comes out this year. I really am psyched up even though the rest of what this year will bring is very uncertain and to be honest, I have a lot of anxiety about what 2021 will shape up to be. Who knows? My only hope is that I get things moving with my creative endevors because at long last I feel like I have the motivation and somewhat of a vision for what I want to do. I hope to be able to document a lot of that journey here and if I end up moving this blog somewhere else - so be it! Again, who knows? I guess that's my major takeaway from 2020 as a year - you can't predict shit.